My darling a new year and another year without you. I absolutely hate new years eve and the days that follow knowing they are to be without you. I remember when we went into London for the milenium. Seems like only yesterday and yet it feels like a lifetime ago since I held you in my arms and we kissed when Big Ben chimed. sweet memories. I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT REALLY HURTS!Sometimes I feel that I can't go on. I love you so much. I wish you would come to me Please give a sign that you are still with me I love you very much and I will love you for ever and ever and ever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx